I Lost Myself Because of You

I was just a joke to you.
Something when u were done u threw.
And her! Just fluttering her lash.
U were just waiting for me to crash!
You didn't want me anymore.
So my heart was tore.
For days I couldn't speak,
I was too weak.
My knees buckled,
"Friends" chuckled.
I gave up, you know?
My feelings for you ceased to show.
I smiled and laughed.
But that was just part of the craft.
I danced and jumped.
Screamed until my throat was lumped.
Inside I used to be crying.
Every time I saw you with her, my heart was dying.
I wanted to hate you and love you too.
I didn’t know how it could be true.
I knew it was wrong.
But I was with you for so long.
I forgot one of the most important things to be.
I forgot how to be just me.